more and more each day i would catch myself totally taking my mind out of the thought of finding a new love. in my mind, i know i want to be with somebody and be loved but then, it is really difficult to find one and maybe that is the reason why I am not taking my quest so seriously. I dumped 3 guys, thinking they are not even half of the man that I am interested in. Feeling ko nga baka ma depress na naman ako nito especially now that I am not doing something productive. I have totally grown and I am not sure if it is for the better or if my personality has gotten worst. Last January, when I was going through a tough time with my break up with Paul, nag promise ako kay God na magiging good girl na talaga ako. Mahirap maging good girl lalo na sa katulad kong may angking kasamaan ng ugali at katigasan ng ulo. God gifted us with free will so syempre pwede kong idahilan sa kanya na since I am human, parang weak ako kaya I have committed a sin pero "NO", ayokong gawing excuse yun. I know myself kasi, and sobrang stupid ako when I allow myself to be one. God is good talaga because during the time I wanted to commit a sin, HE made sure that all doors were locked and the key is nowhere to be found. Mabait talaga sya sa akin, he helped me get over the temptation. Now, I am not focus sa quest ko in finding true love, baka hindi talaga for me. Bahala na si God kasi ayoko na mag cry before ako matulog. Alam naman ni God na nagiging hobby ko na naman ang pag iyak every single night lalo na pag may background music pa. I plan to buy a book, The Diary of Anne Frank, if not tomorrow, baka this weekend, I will call the bookstore muna if available sa nearest branch nila. Before ako matulog ngayon, browse muna ako ng mga books na magandang basahin, nami-miss ko na tong hobby ko magbasa, lagi na kasi ako naka tutok sa internet kaya lumalaki na baby fats ko hehehe.
